2015 🌠

Lets say bye to 2015 and  hello to 2016.

2015 has been really happening for me as there's a lot of things happened.

I met new friends, working full time in a construction and development company which is really busy and stressful, emotions got up and down because of studies plan and a lot more little things that's uncountable.

Sometimes you realize growing up is fun but sometimes you just hate growing up. (ironic huh?) 

Anyway, as you grow up you get to experience things you can never thought you can do when you're young. You get to know you have to take up more responsibility. You realize you can't be childish anymore. You know times wait no one. You know how to be yourself and not simply impress anyone who's not important. You know who will always be there when you need them.

Don't ask how it happened, you just know when it's time.

I'm really enjoying every moment now with people I love and people who's important to me.

It's amazing how you can change to be a better person in one year time. 

All the best in 2016. 🎉 🍷

 

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As the elder daughter in the family, I'm always the one who have to take up the responsibility. Sometimes it's kinda stressful for me especially when there's lot of things that is pending to be solved and time is always not enough. I'm always the driver who have to fetch grandma to the market every Sunday morning or taking care of grandpa health condition and making sure he eat his medicine on time. It seems like some easy job but sometimes you just hate it when you have to wake up early every single day.

Until you realize there's not much time left for you to spend with the elderly.

I was out with friends on a relaxing Sunday and realized grandpa vomited when I reached home. Its in black colour and I thought that's because he had coffee in the afternoon. He looks pale,weak and no appetite which is very rare cause he love to eat and he eat almost everything. LOL.

So I brought him to clinic and that old doctor told me he suspected my grandpa got heart attack and told me to send him to hospital emergency ward. ._.

He just listen to my grandpa heartbeat and stop the helper from putting on the blood pressure cuff by giving her a NO hand sign. At the time I saw his action I already got panicked since I'm the only one there and my grandpa keep telling me he is very dizzy (I don't think I can carry him if he faint). I rushed to the hospital after I got the refer letter from the clinic.

After sent him into the emergency ward, I waited outside.

Since the doctor told me my grandpa suspected heart attack, I called my aunt just in case anything serious happen. So they came after dinner and we waited outside for few hours. Somehow that's my second time waiting in the emergency. I remembered the first time waited there alone when brother is inside the ward. The feeling of endless hours waiting alone is so terrified. Parents were outstation at that time and I don't know who to find. End up Kenji who's doing national service in Singapore skype and talk with me.

Kay, back to the topic. We waited till 1a.m. and the investigating report is out and we've been told my grandpa is having internal bleeding. He have to admit hospital and we went home after all the check in process.

The next day, we've been told the causes of internal bleeding is due to stomach ulcer and he have to stay in the ward for few days after the treatment. So, I was busy in and out hospital till Friday after he's allowed to discharge. 

Attended cousin Ang's wedding in hometown during the weekend and back to KL on Monday. I brought him to his medical check up and the doctor told me have to be very careful cause the dose of  the medicine my grandpa consuming to prevent heart attack has been lowered to stop his internal bleeding. On the same day, my mom knocked my door in 3a.m. and told me my grandpa is unconscious. My grandma was so worried cause we all thought that he has heart attack. Called ambulance, the medical team checked and its because his sugar level dropped to 2 which is extremely low for patient who have diabetes. After they injected some medicine, he's back to normal but he still have to go hospital. I followed and there goes my third time staying outside emergency ward alone. Back to home early morning changed and back to work. 

After this incident, there's few people praised me for what I've done and saying I'm so independent and reliable. I'm really thankful for every single things that I've went through and make me stronger and tougher today. And then I tell myself not to complaint anymore. Spending a little time with them is actually not that hard and it's so precious cause life is unpredictable.☮

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Life has been really hectic since August and I love my life although it causes tiredness but it's the little things that happened in life made us happier.

So, we planned a farewell + birthday celebration for Nee before she leave and continue her studies in Pahang. The preparation was so last minute and everything have to settled in one week time. It's insane but luckily we made it.
We recorded some short clips from our friends in high school and some of Nee's form 6 classmate. We also managed to invite her parents to give some words for her. She cried when she is watching the video and I guess that is one of the purpose we made her the video. That totally worth for those sleepless nights HAHAHA
Not to mention those embarrassing and awkward moment when we're recording the video. Thousand watt of staring from strangers. LOL
Also it was my first time went hiking in Broga Hill and I'm too genius I got so excited when we're on the way back and sprained my ankle. As usual, your friends laugh at you before they help you, so I guess I made Kah Yen and Nee's day again.HA!
And thanks to the cacated leg, I got 2days MC from doctor and have enough sleep in the day time to cover back those sleepless night.

 When we're busy making the video.

 Two of us worked till 5a.m. while yen and ky already slept.

 My 24 hours never sleep face and nee's  I woke up with enough sleep face. Lol

Had a gathering with my Wesley Warrior before some of them leave KL and continue their studies. That was a really fun night. Thanks Guys and all the best in the future. I miss everyone already. T.T

 Bitch I miss you.♡

 Best classmate ever. ★

Due to everyone is going to further study in different area, Apple suggested a 5sc1 gathering and luckily most of us able to make it. After 3 years graduated and never see some of them, this gathering makes me realize time flies and we're getting old. Had a try in a cafe which served pancake with that 3 bff before joining the gathering and I love the food. (说好的减肥呢?）LOLOL

 4 retarded child who love pancakes. 🎀

Till then. Good Luck Everyone. 🌸

*Wanted to update blog in November. But oh well, it's up now. HAHAHAHA

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Finally crawl back here to update abit before I'm too old and forget everything that happened. Lol 

Was too lazy to update last month.

Guess life was too tough that I got a little tired for growing up. I've been trying to be tough and independent all the time since graduated high school. Somehow I manage to I guess. Well at least I am compare to most of the teenagers in my age. Have been working non stop since January, working life is so dull. The car is giving me so many problems that I have to visit the workshop almost every month. Mehhhh. Result for uni is out on Monday but sadly I didn't get any offer. Oh well, applied for second time and wish I can get it. *finger crossed.

Today is mom's birthday and my parents anniversary. Yay! *pops confetti 

Dad came back on Thursday and we have been having nice food everyday. There goes my diet plan.  ._. 

I donated my blood for the first time exactly one year ago, guess I should have do that again to help others. 

Had dinner with parents and grandparents at a buffet restaurant. I'm too full to move now. Lolol 

Happy Birthday mommy! 

With grandparents

And the annoying kids.

Bro dragged me to his basketball training this morning cause he can't stand I always tell him I'm fat. HAHAHA

Told dad I wanted gummy candies so badly and asked him to buy me candies. Lolol. When I thought he would say no but instead he said yes. I'm the happiest kid in the world. XD 

Sometimes, I wish I was a kid so I can get happy over small things easily and doesn't have to worry about other stuff. :/

Okay this post is so random I should end here. :P 

Late night thought

Was in a depress mood earlier before my birthday but I guess I'm okay now.

I always try to be someone who can bring happiness and laughter to others even I'm always being mean and sarcastic. People always thought that I'm optimistic person but little did they know my mood swing really fast, especially during midnight and I couldn't sleep.

Every time when my life is going to be in a new chapter, or I should say when things started to change. I become someone who can't sleep and got depress till I stuff food in my mouth 24/7.

It's sad when you know you shouldn't be like this but you just can't control yourself.

Guess I got really stressed about my future. Heck I can't even imagine what is my future going to be like. I'm clueless. 

CLUELESS. 

I don't really know whether I can get my ass into uni. It's so depressing when everyone around you know what are the best for them and they clearly know what they want or what they going to do with their life when I'm the one that don't even know what to do with the future.

Sometimes, I wonder what is the purpose God let us born and be the most intelligent one among living things?

A good question right? I know. HA.

Anyway I wish things goes smooth and I know I can only have faith and keep believe that miracles could happen. :D

The turning point in the process of growing up is when you discover the core of strength within you that survives all hurt.- Max Lerner

How I spent my 20th birthday. #150608

I'm officially 20! Which is happy and kinda sad at the same time cause I'm aging. LOLOLOLOL!

I'm officially 20!

Parents was out from town so I've got lots of fun with my friends. Going out 4 days in a row is kinda exhausting but I'm happy with these people who willing to spend their day with me. *90 degrees bow* THANK YOU PEOPLE! 

So, went to Sekinchan with aunt and cousin for a day trip on Saturday and have seafood as our lunch. Everything was yummy and fresh since it's near to beach. Also went out with Sam at night to watch a very funny and hilarious movie aka Spy, which causes I got hyper active for the whole night. Foul words in every sentence but it's pretty fine for me since I'm not the good girl type. Lol! 

Thank you for sending me home, big tree! Ps: next time must take picture together. Okay? 

On the Sunday, pretty babe khoiwei came and fetch me to have a walk at Desa Park City with her pet dog just because I said I never went there and dinner at a pet-friendly restaurant in Publika. We have a good time talking bout everything happened around us. Time flies. Never thought we can still talk bout everything even we didn't really see each other for a really long time. Even we may be apart now, but memories will never fade. I love you not only a friend but my big sister who will always, always be there for me no matter what. Thank you.❤️

Edward the fat daddy called at night and wished me happy birthday made me kinda touch at first but you asshole stop blaming and complain I never free horrr. You're the one that's always busy. 😒

Look at what puberty did to us! xD

Yesterday, had a small gathering with high school friends after work because Eric is back for sem break. Never thought you guys prepared a small surprise for me even it's failed. HAHAHAHA! But I do enjoy everything. Thank you once again! Watched San Andreas after dinner and the movie is really nice I think it worth to watch for second time. 

Sent Nee home and Yen aka the driver and me had supper at a mamak just because both of us don't feel like going home that early. And I have a urge that I want Mcd ice cream to end my birthday. I don't know how that idea pop up in my mind but the feeling to have ice cream is so strong. Yen fetch me to get my ice cream even the roundabout blocked due to the mrt construction. She purposely go another way which is a lot farer just to make sure I get my ice cream! WHY YOU SO SWEET! Spend an hour there just to have ice cream and fries with lots of selfies cause we're cool. Lolol 

Reach home and found out I didn't bring my keys with me and woke my sister to open the door and she showed me a fuck you for waking me at 3 in the morning face. LOLOLOL 

Not forgetting Ashley, Rachael and Karen from office who wished me happy birthday and my boss for treating us lunch! :D

My sisters from another mother. ❤️

Everyone. :D

Today I got my first HPV vaccine injection and lunch with meiqi and her joe. They brought me all the way to Ampang just because I said I wanna have Uncle Jang but it was closed. HAHAHAHAHA 

But still, we had Korean food as lunch which considered fulfill my craves for Korean food. Thank you you two lovely couple!  Forgot to take picture again :/

Can't wait until parents to come home!❤️

Also thank you to those who wished me happy birthday on my special day. THANK YOU. 

Sometimes I couldn't believe there's so many nice people I know and they willing to spent their day with me made me feel so touch. What've I done to deserve all this? THANK YOU EVERYONE!

因為你們我是幸福的孩子. 謝謝你們! 

17 Dating Habits Of An Extremely Independent Woman

1. She’s never sitting around, waiting for you to call. She’s got too much to do and too much to think about outside of her dating life.

2. Rather, she’s confident enough and comfortable enough with herself to know that if you like her, and you’ve got balls, you will call her. If you don’t, oh well. It wasn’t meant to be and she’ll be happier with someone else.

3. At the same time, if she likes you and she feels like talking to you, she’ll call whenever she damn well pleases. She’s got a busy life and a lot going on, so if she likes you enough, she has no problem with using one of her rare spare moments to talk to you.

4. If planning a date and figuring out a time is more complicated than planning a bank robbery, or if you have to “take a rain check” on multiple occasions, she’s going to get over it real fast. There are plenty of other fish in the sea, and having to waste energy on someone who cancels all the time is not worth it.

5. She’s extremely self-aware. She knows that being independent and self-sufficient doesn’t mean she lacks emotions or feelings. It just means that she’s got a fast-moving life and she’s not afraid of waving away someone who’s just bringing nonsense or negativity into her life.

6. She’s not looking for someone to support her financially. She’s looking for someone who’s going to support her emotionally and mentally. She wants support in life and in whatever it is that she’s trying to do.

7. …And when she thinks she’s found someone like that, she’s just as ready to share her own support and encouragement with them.

8. She’s not into the Hollywood movie stereotype of the cutthroat career woman who becomes soft and loving the minute a man enters into her life and rescues her.

9. Instead, an independent woman just thinks of herself as someone who is ambitious, hard-working, and self-sustaining. She’s not looking for a man to sweep in and save her from this life. She loves this life. She’s just looking for someone who’s going to balance her out, stand as her equal, and allow her to share the life she’s built up for herself.

10. An independent woman knows that she doesn’t have to be crazily successful and wealthy to be considered independent and to feel independent. All she needs is to feel comfortable in her own skin, to know how to provide for herself, and to have passions and interests and projects that exist outside of her dating life.

11. …But she’s not against dating. She doesn’t hate men. She loves dating. She enjoys romance. She wants to find someone and share her life with them. She just knows how to balance it out with other things in order to keep herself feeling fulfilled and happy.

12. An independent woman will not play games with you. Not because she thinks she’s better than you or because she is too good for games. She just finds playing games to be boring and a waste of time. She’s used to being upfront about who she is and what she wants, so playing games is not something that comes naturally to her.

13. She is not concerned with petty drama. Maybe she was, at some point, because enjoying drama is just a natural part of being a teenager and growing up. But at this point in her life, she doesn’t need drama. She has enough going on to keep her entertained, and too many other things that she’s curious about to get caught up in unimportant drama.

14. Being self-sufficient and independent is not equivalent to being high-strung. She’s just as happy to spend a night in her pajamas with you as she is to go out to a nice dinner date. If she likes you, she doesn’t care about what she should be doing and what kind of dates she should be going on. She’ll do whatever she wants, because as long as she is having fun with you, it doesn’t matter.

15. She doesn’t nag you, but she does expect you to put forth your best self.

16. …And she will not apologize for that.

17. She doesn’t believe that she’s always right, but she does believe she has a right to her own opinions. She knows that she makes mistakes and is not correct in everything that she says. But she will not apologize for having something to say. 

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It has been some time for me to wake up early willingly and have an enjoyable morning. Most of the time I wake up early is either fetch my sister for school,rushing to work or fetching my grandma to market on a weekend. Not to mention how long I never have time to read newspapers.

Having a cup of ice coffee and my favorite nasi lemak on weekend like today is blessed.  

And I realize I'm having a life that I wanted since kid. 

Working in office with friendly people, busy all the time.

Having people that I love around me and they love me too. 

What else I can ask for?

People asked me how I feel after being single. My answer would be happy. 

It's not that I don't like being in a relationship. I guess it can describe like this where either being single or in a relationship makes us grow anyway. 

The different is grow up in different perspective.

Human is always greedy. 

When you're in a relationship, you want freedom. When you're not, you want to be in a relationship.

Realizing being single for almost a year, I'm thinking more mature. 

I've put myself in a relationship way too young. Never had a chance to explore the world yet. 

And now, I can make friends easily without worrying the other half would get jealous, hanging out with friends whenever I want. 

And most important, no more arguments.

People asked me hate him or not. 

I don't. Maybe was. But not now. 

Hate is a very strong word. Hating someone is torturing. You're the one who suffer if you have the hate feelings inside you.

We're now stranger if you wanna ask.

We don't contact anymore and I'm not interested with his life.

If he's having a better life, then congrats.

If he's life is still the same, then it's his choice.

Whether being in a relationship or not is a very complicated question. 

The best answer will always be, are you satisfied with your life now. 

I used to think that I've to be in a relationship no matter what.

But then again, why should you do that if he's not the suitable one? 

Making ownself suffer and hate the life is not the purpose we live. 

Having someone who can make your life happier is.

Don't get me wrong, I still believe in true love. 

Where one day, I'll find someone that makes me happy, understand my stupid joke, love me no matter what I did.

But it's not the time yet. 

I've read a quote, it says before you found the right person, the best way is keep yourself in a rational single-ship.

在遇到對的人之前,最好的辦法是保持一段理智的單身.

Don't get yourself in a relationship if you haven't ready. Love yourself more. 

在一切变好之前，我们总要经历一些不开心的日子，这段日子也许很长，也许只是一觉醒来。有时候，选择快乐，更需要勇气。

Cinderella said have courage and be kind. 

Keep yourself happy no matter what. ❤️

Bad luck day

Was having exam in the school hall and got abit nervous when teacher announced only half an hour left cause I still have an essay to go. 

And suddenly whole roof top of the school hall starting to crash from behind and the moment I turned and have a look it's like a Hollywood movie scene happening. 

All the dust coming to the front where we're all sitting and having exam. Teachers and students running toward the entrance. 

We were settled in another classroom without anything. After 20 minutes, we went into the hall to get back our papers and belongings. All of the tables and chairs were covered with dust and sand. Try to imagine a storm in a desert, that's what we saw. Luckily no one were injured. ( Can't post any picture.)

Just now, while on the way to fetch mom back from work and realized tyre punctured. Luckily bro was with me and he changed the tyre. 

I don't know what will happen next. 

I wish everything go smooth start from now. 

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有天發現自己不再年輕，

有天朋友不在經常碰面，

有天越來越不想說話，

有天我忘了微笑，

請記得一定要提醒我。

人生還很長。

Chinese New Year 2015

Happy Chinese New Year!

It has been a year since we celebrate cny last year. Wao time do pass by very fast that I didn't even realize I'm turning 20 soon. Very soon ;(

As usual, we visited granduncle house after we had breakfast. 

And so lucky for us, the car broke down halfway before we turned in the junction to granduncle house which is at Sungai Buloh New Village. 

We stopped the car at the side and realised the engine was too hot cause my dad never checked the water meter for engine. Lol ( He always nag me to check engine oil and water meter before driving, but ownself forgot to do. Hahaha )

Luckily there's still some workers working for the MRT construction. We borrowed water from them to cool down the engine. Glad that they are friendly and willing to help.

     Photo with cousin from the lion city.

And yay will be going Genting tomorrow until chor 5. Even though we will mostly stay in the resort but I can enjoy the good weather. So it's better than stay in house only right? 

Till then. ❤️

Langkawi & Penang Trip'14

The day after the BBW event, I had a family trip to Langkawi Island and also Penang.
It's feels really good to have a trip after the tiring job.
On the midnight of 20th, we started our journey by driving to the jetty so we can manage to take the first trip of ferry to Langkawi Island.

Well everyone looks tired after few hours journey.
I didn't even close my eyes, guess I was too excited.
We reached Langkawi around 8a.m. and waited for the rented car till 11 something.
Since our time to check in hotel is 3 afternoon, we decided to have lunch and visited the aquarium which is nearby our hotel.

While waiting ferry.

Waiting for the person in charge who rented car in Langkawi.

We took lots of photossssss in the aquarium, this is the 3rd time I visit this island and yet I still find everything there is amazing. The people are friendly, things are cheap especially liquor. =P
Except the weather cause it rain most of the time.

My lovely dad & mom.♥

And my family.

Silly brother, annoying sister and pretty me. HAHAHA

And Beauty and the Beastss.

Cousins.

Everyone.

And us.

We took a lot of selfies too.

Selfie level x9867526. 

Beach behind our resort. 

Then we went to the Eagle Square the next day. 

And I'm so lucky to meet one of the BBW crew who work in the same position with me.

Meet Siew Thong aka our leader. =) 

Flowersss.

Flowersss x2. 

Went to the cable car as well but it's actually quite disappointed cause the sky bridge still under maintenance after so long!

It's also Uncle Liong birthday!

So we celebrated his birthday by giving him a surprise. 

Everyone pretended don't know it's his birthday. Haha

While waiting the dinner, Me and cousin Yun walked around 1km to find a bakery shop and bought him a cake. Some more have to ask the restaurant owner to take the cake through the back door. Lol 

Happy 56th birthday! 

And look at my dad. -___- Gay man......

The third day, we packed our belongings and continue our journey to Penang.

Photo taken at the jetty.

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Penang

Meet cousin Ang who is currently staying at Penang and being our tour guide.

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Cousin Ang

Had our dinner and shopping to end our first day at Penang due to raining.

On the Christmas eve, we went to Bukit Bendera and other tourist's must visit places.

The Trick Art Musuem.

Can you spot the lenglui? Hahaha

I'm dead and two kids still happily posing for picture. 

On the last day, we have a fun day with beach activities. 

The first time experienced parachute too. 

It was Funnnnnnnnnnnn! =D

On the way back!

We leave Penang at the afternoon and safely arrived home at the evening.

It was relax and fun when you traveled with people you love and they love you too.

Till next trip. Port Dickson! Yay beach again.♥

♥