Late night thought

Was in a depress mood earlier before my birthday but I guess I'm okay now.

I always try to be someone who can bring happiness and laughter to others even I'm always being mean and sarcastic. People always thought that I'm optimistic person but little did they know my mood swing really fast, especially during midnight and I couldn't sleep.

Every time when my life is going to be in a new chapter, or I should say when things started to change. I become someone who can't sleep and got depress till I stuff food in my mouth 24/7.

It's sad when you know you shouldn't be like this but you just can't control yourself.

Guess I got really stressed about my future. Heck I can't even imagine what is my future going to be like. I'm clueless. 

CLUELESS. 

I don't really know whether I can get my ass into uni. It's so depressing when everyone around you know what are the best for them and they clearly know what they want or what they going to do with their life when I'm the one that don't even know what to do with the future.

Sometimes, I wonder what is the purpose God let us born and be the most intelligent one among living things?

A good question right? I know. HA.

Anyway I wish things goes smooth and I know I can only have faith and keep believe that miracles could happen. :D

The turning point in the process of growing up is when you discover the core of strength within you that survives all hurt.- Max Lerner

How I spent my 20th birthday. #150608

I'm officially 20! Which is happy and kinda sad at the same time cause I'm aging. LOLOLOLOL!

I'm officially 20!

Parents was out from town so I've got lots of fun with my friends. Going out 4 days in a row is kinda exhausting but I'm happy with these people who willing to spend their day with me. *90 degrees bow* THANK YOU PEOPLE! 

So, went to Sekinchan with aunt and cousin for a day trip on Saturday and have seafood as our lunch. Everything was yummy and fresh since it's near to beach. Also went out with Sam at night to watch a very funny and hilarious movie aka Spy, which causes I got hyper active for the whole night. Foul words in every sentence but it's pretty fine for me since I'm not the good girl type. Lol! 

Thank you for sending me home, big tree! Ps: next time must take picture together. Okay? 

On the Sunday, pretty babe khoiwei came and fetch me to have a walk at Desa Park City with her pet dog just because I said I never went there and dinner at a pet-friendly restaurant in Publika. We have a good time talking bout everything happened around us. Time flies. Never thought we can still talk bout everything even we didn't really see each other for a really long time. Even we may be apart now, but memories will never fade. I love you not only a friend but my big sister who will always, always be there for me no matter what. Thank you.❤️

Edward the fat daddy called at night and wished me happy birthday made me kinda touch at first but you asshole stop blaming and complain I never free horrr. You're the one that's always busy. 😒

Look at what puberty did to us! xD

Yesterday, had a small gathering with high school friends after work because Eric is back for sem break. Never thought you guys prepared a small surprise for me even it's failed. HAHAHAHA! But I do enjoy everything. Thank you once again! Watched San Andreas after dinner and the movie is really nice I think it worth to watch for second time. 

Sent Nee home and Yen aka the driver and me had supper at a mamak just because both of us don't feel like going home that early. And I have a urge that I want Mcd ice cream to end my birthday. I don't know how that idea pop up in my mind but the feeling to have ice cream is so strong. Yen fetch me to get my ice cream even the roundabout blocked due to the mrt construction. She purposely go another way which is a lot farer just to make sure I get my ice cream! WHY YOU SO SWEET! Spend an hour there just to have ice cream and fries with lots of selfies cause we're cool. Lolol 

Reach home and found out I didn't bring my keys with me and woke my sister to open the door and she showed me a fuck you for waking me at 3 in the morning face. LOLOLOL 

Not forgetting Ashley, Rachael and Karen from office who wished me happy birthday and my boss for treating us lunch! :D

My sisters from another mother. ❤️

Everyone. :D

Today I got my first HPV vaccine injection and lunch with meiqi and her joe. They brought me all the way to Ampang just because I said I wanna have Uncle Jang but it was closed. HAHAHAHAHA 

But still, we had Korean food as lunch which considered fulfill my craves for Korean food. Thank you you two lovely couple!  Forgot to take picture again :/

Can't wait until parents to come home!❤️

Also thank you to those who wished me happy birthday on my special day. THANK YOU. 

Sometimes I couldn't believe there's so many nice people I know and they willing to spent their day with me made me feel so touch. What've I done to deserve all this? THANK YOU EVERYONE!

因為你們我是幸福的孩子. 謝謝你們!